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Hey, it’s just okay, Chloe, relax and feel as fine as you can, have a nice weekend. It’s raining in my place now, hope it’s better in yours. Sumi

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"sumire" (sumire_kawab…@nospam.yahoo.co.uk) writes: > Hey, it’s just okay, Chloe, > relax and feel as fine as you can, > have a nice weekend. > It’s raining in my place now, > hope it’s better in yours.

Its the kind of day where if there is no rain, for the irst weekend (possibly rain tomorrow or this evening) yu;d not mind any to clear the air. I have ot opened the doors since this morning, to not let the heat in. Not a clue iof it got better. To me, a nice spring day is a day where there i a teue blue sky, no awful humidity, and a nice lil breeze. This is what it used to be like after the third week of august, up to a decade ago. I think the dome cleared away though sometime this morning. I deided to sort through my closest anyway to see what I coudl wear, as jeans are suddenly unbarable. Got a few dresses thAT STILL FiT AFTER THE GAINING A NORMAL WEIGHT, SOME TOO TIGHTLY (oh, darned be the stupid inventor f the cap key!), ome not at all by much:). But most are darn acetate which I never wear (hand me downs) or are so lil house in the prairie, I;d wanna die. Where the…do they darn sell cotton anymore??? Argh. I’ll have to go shopign during my holidays. Darn with all I’d have to do to get to summer, in the house, shopping, cleaning up, paintng, I;d need six months of holidays, not one week!!! Argh. I have wo that can pass, but not sure if th4e shoes I have fot at all. I have black or almost white (not cream and not offwhite, more like a creamy egg white?) in sandals. Small heel. BUT at my heigt this means that if I go outdoors on my breaks, I can not sit anywhere. Yhey use lil walls to sit on, and my knees already are in my fporehead when I sit on those with flat shoes. Nice view for the guys sitting on the lil ""pool" (fountain bassin) across from that spot, heh:(. As well, my darn legs are so long if I wear any heels I can not fit them under my desk. They hardly fit at all without heels, wehre I have to contorsion myself to slide both knees under the desk, and sit twistign my spine like mad, too. Already spent over 500 on chiros this year…Can;t make it worse, no mo’e money to put on that…Too many things to see to, like havign decent appropriate fo the season dresses and clothes. Its enough that Graves makes me sensitive to hot and cold, I donlt have to wear jean, a sweater, woolen socks and running shoes when its 35 C and humid, nah! Sheesh. Too bad, two of the w3inter dresses fot me quite well, maybe three. Nothing I coud wear at work though. If they woud look exec on soemone else, on me, they are too much of a killer dress type… Tryign things on reminded me of how I was before Graves hit. I.e. of how I woud wear dresses all the time, working and nto having had yet the decade without work, unable to work…Amnd how I would retouch clothes, or have them retouch -by my mom- saying how I thought doing the shoulders that way, removing the sleeves or bundling the waste on one side or whatever woudl make it look. I laughed when that ability kicked in again after 20 tries… Gawd, I shudl have married a designer. But they all are gay, so:):) I mean, he’d have made a fortune with me telling him to fix this cut here this and that way:) Made me think of how old my mom now is, and of how she used to always bend to my "caprices", in part for living creativity herself, but also laughing at the weird ideas I had that usually ened up great:), and started fashions. She woudl laugh when I;d get to have to find some other way of wearing this or that once the same thing ht th market and was worn everywhere:). I’ll never find anyone to ever go with me on theideas after her…She still would sowe woudl we ask her but no one wants to as she is 82 going on 83….and would make herself sick staying up late ith "orders" from everyoen if oen started that. I’d not. Makes me have flashbacks of being four and being called in the house to try my new dresses or blouses or shorts or pants…. She;d do them for the entire bunch we were… Starting age nine or so, I;d say "Mom, coudl you put the pockets a conrasting color and the sleeves cuuffs, too? " or "Wow. You know, if we coudl add just a fine thread of discrete marine here, it would be so neat and pick up the skin tone and eye color, too…? One day, I was a kid in grade three. Barely the 60s:) Ky sister got rid of her baton girl boots. They fitted me number one, but the dam pompom, and the cut like cowbopy boots. Sigh…. I asked mom f I coudl have themn, and removed the pompoms. A few years later, after they all asked where I got these neat boots, everyone was wearing them in Quebec, and somewhere in the States, so did Nancy Sinatra. They became known as gogo boots. As soon a they were, mine hit the garbage can. I already had a dozen more ideas:) Gawd, I miss my mommie…………. I planned on ging to see her tomorrow of the weather allowed. I.e. if I was not too spaced ut from the ehat and if it did not rain…My tires are too bad to drive on a highway when there is rain. I already risk the freeway each day to go to work, heh. I need to et tires during my hpolidays! Beigish juuuust a touch of invisible pinkish touch shoes… A black handbag that woudl not look to wintery. Many many skirts, tops, dresses… But most of all..No sencond most of all I need a tan. Must get a tan when I have my holidays in the shopign centre or painting walls and cleaning the house:) and installing tires and and and…… Forst most-of-all..I need a face!!!! Oh, I also need a strapless bra or three, and and and…no seams panties and beige invsible lines panties, and a few bracelets and a few sober neklaces and earings, and I need cotton colored clothes, not beige, not black, not navy, not red. More like …Hm….I dunno. I changed palette. I’ll have to find out durign my holidays.WhenI take breaks from email and the rest:) Hahahaha:) C  >  > Sumi —

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I made all your posts from the other end to here. It’s asl after all, where one can find you Have a nice day and mail me again. Sumi

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As I said in a long post to Ghost this morning, I have not emailed anyone in weeks…. Just was crawling under work overload…. In the evenigns, spenbt less time online too, out of decompression taking its time once at home….then havign to sleep and take care of pets meds and so on….and of my own health. Not doing this out of wantign to iugnore anyone, but when that rushed and speedy, I just post too lng, even more than usual, and email too long. It works this way. The ver4bal faculty is exacerbated, with Graves, in my case. probably cause I am more "gifted" verbally than in other ways:), to start with. When nto tired, I control it more. But if tired and exausted, the control switch gets out of my reach as the mind just blows in all directions, no focus, no concentration just goig from one thing to another, the rbaina ctivities so speeded up that catchign the roder or signal to stop is beyond human capacity. I am holding on as I can. Beign careful with sleep whent he eather allows, staying out of the sun like today if I am so dreamign of being on sime beach, and staying offline more when it gets to speeded up, also cause the puter waves I then seem to physically feel hittign my brain and exaerbating it even more, for some reason. Just like I then end up feelign waves from the microwave (yes, with the door closed….Even with the new one….). There are days when I thin that maybe Graves is linked to all those waves our world is polluted with. And it seems to hit people who are more intitive as wqell, where maybe there is some ability to "cathc waves already in place in those people. I dunno. But being on line when Graves bugs me is a nono…. Sorry. Nothing personal with o oen at all…. I then always start by asl, so that if anyone weants to find me and know I am alive still, they all could see I am, even on days where I just make one post, sparing people from 20 extremely long posts, when I can. Sorry again…. To all who await an email…. Goofing in here I also find not as bad with consequences as goofing on a one on one email, where email is always seen as more personal…. C  "sumire" (sumire_kawab…@nospam.yahoo.co.uk) writes: > I made all your posts from the other end > to here. It’s asl after all, where one can > find you Have a nice day and mail me > again. > Sumi

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Perhaps a few topics of varied interest coudl offer you soemthign to post about. Maybe it is time for a few new topics. Let’s see what we can come up with. Coming up, in new thread titles. Pick one, and make it whatever you want from there, or make new ones too!:) C —

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